Sunday, October 15, 2006 @1:50 AM
Drifting further apart..so far, i havent introduce myself on this blog.. i am someone who lives in singapore, in a place call jurong. living in an apartment in the HDB flat.this doesnt sounds convincing.. actually this blog.. im going to introduce my siblings, im the youngest of the four of us. i have three elder sisters! they are great.. in one way or another, they meant alot and i mean ALOT to me. we have an age gap of 7 years between my 2nd and 3rd sis. while my eldest sis is juz a year older than my 2nd sis, same goes to me and my 3rd sis.last time, my family lived together. i think that should be the best moments we had.. as a family, although we might have some quarrels at times, but i think quarrels are actually helping us to bond more as we will forgive each other and stay together again. i think i am starting to crap.recently, around these 2 years or so, our bonds starts to get weaker... it feels abit.. prickly? maybe not abit.first, my 2nd sis is staying at my grandmother's apartment to accompany my granny, because my grandfather had left this world a little too early, which is 3 years back. why do humans only regret when something or someone left you and never cherish until they know they must?ok.. the next one, will be my eldest sis. she moved out because she is getting married!! actually she's counted as married =) she is living very happily with her hubby, at least i hope she is.and right just now, she came back home with her hubby to visit our parents. she will be staying overnight at home and brother-in-law had went home first. because they planned to play the same game together and there is only one desktop at her house. so she is staying overnight to play with her hubby.. haha come to think of that, they are cute! still seems like children playing games together!just now, when my parents are just asleep. she mentioned that.. it seems like she is no longer our eldest sister, seems like whatever we do, we had never discussed or never told her what we are going to do, never tell her anything and keeping secrets from her.. at least that is what i think. haha sorry STML again (Short-Term Memory Lost). cant really recall what she said.. maybe because im heartbroken..i've been questioning her on the past few minutes before im writing this post. i think i wont go into the details. she is still playing her games but i do not know what actually is on her mind?! then she said, 'just forget what i've said, it's nothing important..'im so.. ... i dont know how to explain the feeling, it's ambiguous..as for my 3rd sis.. i think she is living in a virtual world, until she knows how cruel reality is.. i dont wish to see her fall off her virtual dream paradise. she currently is having a 'camp'. i shall not further smoking my way through, feels bad keeping a secret which should not be kept.if u wanna know the detail of the real camp.. u can link to her blog at the previous post or my links..ok la.. i shall stop for now.. this is the last weekend holiday before school starts.cant wait for school to start.. at least can see my friends..i.. dont wanna see our bonds between each other.. to.. dies off. i hope it can return to its old state, nothing have changed is the best.
♥ .please.let.me.free.
.float.to.heaven.wooolalah.