Saturday, May 05, 2007 @2:03 AM
why am i thinking so much, and yet when wanted to blog, nothing comes out of my head.
im torturing myself with my mind keep thinking of the incident today.. i felt guilty, but still thinking, i shouldn't be that childish and foolish to heed people's words on doing that.
i am truthfully sorry about what has happened today. maybe this is not the time to joke around, maybe i should have told others not to disturb u, maybe i should have known u r in a bad mood, if only.. im not there. it will be better off without me..
sometimes, im afraid that histories might repeat, im scared the dark ages in secondary schools will resurface, things which i tried to prevent it from happening. i can only hope it will not happen, cos i felt sense of insecure.. sometimes..
im childish and super pessimistic, that might be the other side of me.. i tried to hide it.
wondering what will be the feeling when u r not in this world anymore, izzit very light? feather-weight? uncontrollable breaths?
if it can only be a dream, a fantasy. reality is.. so ... ...
♥ .please.let.me.free.
.float.to.heaven.wooolalah.