Monday, October 29, 2007 @6:25 PM
i guess, there wont be anyone reading this post.. but when there is input, there muz be the same output, if things accumulates, it will burst one day.. right?
i know im being hated le, but my actual purpose was to hope, things will talk out, work out, solved.
everyone should know the truth, isnt it the way true friends should be?
everyone will be at fault, including me. y shouldnt everyone juz say everything out and solve them?
everyone who is watching this, should listen to all sides of the story, shouldnt they?
all these are just TOO difficult to fulfill.. are they?
why do u have to hide inside?
why both of u wanna make this friendship shallow?
why? just because of 2 guys, 1 and a half years of friendship juz gone like that?
why? is it worth it?
why should u keep quiet when u know she is ur best friend?
why shouldnt u tell her wad had happened between u and the 2 guys?
why wait for the others to ask, then u might say?
why u didnt tell her not to tell anyone?
why u never help her keep these secrets eventhough she never say they are? i know im not a better friend, i wouldnt know all these unless i ask her or found it out myself.
why not letting her know about others knowing the blog?
why messed up this friendship when u can do something else to patch it back?
seems like im the one who is messing this up, is it? juz like i have said, shouldnt both of u juz talk the secrets, the 不爽, the 不满 out?
what was in ur mind when u r singing 一个像夏天，一个像秋天？
what was the lyrics about? u should know it better than i do..
what happened to all those happy moments we had together?
what are they to both of u now? juz memories? MERE memories?
what have u all forgotten? sakae-ing, k-box-ing, camwhoring, town, vivo, adidas, haircuts, shihlin, chippy, donut factory, nintendo DS-ing, song guessing ETC. maybe there are much much more without me there. and those things are things which we did together..
what will happen after u all cooled down?
isnt it better to solve it earlier?
thinking, it all begins with a misunderstanding about him, her and us back in Hoi An. maybe the trip should be cancelled, but wad's done is done. he shouldnt have acted so strangely there.
so, after this post, maybe u will hate me more, i dont know. i guess everyone will slowly hate me, slowly drifting away, slowly knowing my shortcomings. now im scared of how i should spend the 1 and half years more.
i.. dont want to graduate with no friends taking photo with me. i dont want.
this will be the first post im not enjoying..
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