Sunday, January 17, 2010 @2:35 PM
hey.. dont know why end up here, maybe felt lonely.. aiya..
actually planned to go town with 3rdsis.. but think it's canceled le. or maybe i will go alone.
planned to go at 3pm, so gonna wake her up at 2.15pm.. then when i wake her up, 'can we go tml instead?' she said.
that sentence, i dont know why, juz makes me feel uneasy already. it's like the set plan, now comes a big
'?' (question mark)... so-are-we-still-going-today type of change.
i dont know how should i respond, so i juz 'forget it'. it's like another chapter (of many many chapters) of being pangseh by her.. felt insecure, like the only answer i want from her is 'ok, u go out (of my room) first, let me prepare' and i didnt expect other negative respond. =(
so when i came out of her room. feel sort of 'bu shuang' le. didnt know if she's gonna come out of her room and start preparing or carry on sleeping.
then she came out. wasnt prepared for that and she saw my expression. i think i give the 'expressionless' expression.. bochap?
so we quarreled, i couldnt speak properly cos got mild soar throat. well, dont know who should be the one who won.. but she went back to her room, ditching the plan cos.. 'dont u feel weird if we still go out after a quarrel,' i said. like the atmosphere changed totally.
some insights on the quarreling, she said, 'did i say i dont want to go today?'
alright, she didnt. but she was hinting to go tml when i woke her up, that's not part of the plan, not even in the plan. and that makes me unsure if she's really willing to go with me today.
part 2, she said, 'cos mum told me to accompany you.'
yes, i need someone to accompany if i wanna go town.. it feels weird to walk alone on the big streets and shopping, like i was tagged 'Loner!' everywhere. LOL!... ok, back on the sentence, so does that mean if mum didnt tell her to accompany me, she will carry on in her lalaland? or on computer game?
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well.. so wad r my options now?
stay at home and use the com?
call some friends and go hang out? (who to call??)
go town alone?
shop at nearby malls alone?
go and sleep?
go and die?
alright the possibilities is infinite.. i think i, alone, will stick to my plan.
so take care ppl, im going to town.. and hope i wont bump into ppl i know, feels weird too if being spotted. haha!
ENJOY! oh and.. cos tml (monday), is my off-in-lieu. why i dont wanna go tml? cos i dont wanna rush here rush there, keep worrying about the time.
Labels: LONER